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If I can visualize it a moment before doing it then it will 100% certainly happen.

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Yes I have read about the love bombing technique and it is what has in fact helped me identify every single one of the handlers they have ever sent to attempt to regain control over me (nrg pointed out one when we first started talking - a boy named Taigan who was sent after me when I was 13, for ex). What is interesting is that most handlers are also under the control of obvious monarch training. It must be very different to be trained to be a handler than a slave however, and require much less intillegent genetics / demon manipulation. Handlers are far more expendable then weaponozed slaves and I'm sorry to say I have accidentally killed a few. What they do is come into my life with intense love bombing for a few months maybe even years and then switch to being incredibly abusive to try and gain total control over me. In their brain washed mind (and she also to thought broadcasts) they are convinced that they are terrified of losing me - to the point they'd rather die. Which is what motivates them to isolate, rape, pimp me out and use other common techniques to control someone. The thing is I have loved and lost so many times it just doesn't work anymore. My most recent handler is different. He is also becoming conscious that he has monarch training and I have been open with him that I have it. He has a lot of resources to provide levers but he will certainly utilize more insidious means to attempt to control me (he has been trying to get me pregbabt, for example). Anyways I am confident I can make him die if he truly deserves it. The way that works is that if I realize someone is truly irredeemable - the actively abuse or kill children for example, then I want them dead with all my soul my core no reservations, and any part of their body that is vulnerable will fail. I also think other weapons can protect them and heal such unknown injuries. This game is fascinating. I'm ready to play.

Have you watched Stranger Things? You sound like Eleven.


No, I tried to watch it pretty hard about a year ago but had zero interest in it or it put me asleep. Couldn't watch it for more than a few minutes at a time. Probably part of my programming.

I'm glad you said that because I've had noticeable moments where I was trying to learn something important, and was overcome with drowsiness. I was subject to monarch programming, but I suspect the masses are programmed to become sleepy when important work is to be done.

I constantly have to take breaks from certain topics to avoid sleeping.

If I may, how much time do you spend sleeping in an average day? 3-5 hours?

I can't ever sleep more than three hours at a time. If I am really tired I might wake up for a few minutes and go back to sleep for three more hours. Most nights I get about three hours. I function much better on six. A couple times a month I will get like 9 hours of sleep but always waking up a few times / going back to sleep and only after having used my brain / body A LOT right before.

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Yes I have read about the love bombing technique and it is what has in fact helped me identify every single one of the handlers they have ever sent to attempt to regain control over me (nrg pointed out one when we first started talking - a boy named Taigan who was sent after me when I was 13, for ex). What is interesting is that most handlers are also under the control of obvious monarch training. It must be very different to be trained to be a handler than a slave however, and require much less intillegent genetics / demon manipulation. Handlers are far more expendable then weaponozed slaves and I'm sorry to say I have accidentally killed a few. What they do is come into my life with intense love bombing for a few months maybe even years and then switch to being incredibly abusive to try and gain total control over me. In their brain washed mind (and she also to thought broadcasts) they are convinced that they are terrified of losing me - to the point they'd rather die. Which is what motivates them to isolate, rape, pimp me out and use other common techniques to control someone. The thing is I have loved and lost so many times it just doesn't work anymore. My most recent handler is different. He is also becoming conscious that he has monarch training and I have been open with him that I have it. He has a lot of resources to provide levers but he will certainly utilize more insidious means to attempt to control me (he has been trying to get me pregbabt, for example). Anyways I am confident I can make him die if he truly deserves it. The way that works is that if I realize someone is truly irredeemable - the actively abuse or kill children for example, then I want them dead with all my soul my core no reservations, and any part of their body that is vulnerable will fail. I also think other weapons can protect them and heal such unknown injuries. This game is fascinating. I'm ready to play.

Have you watched Stranger Things? You sound like Eleven.


No, I tried to watch it pretty hard about a year ago but had zero interest in it or it put me asleep. Couldn't watch it for more than a few minutes at a time. Probably part of my programming.

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The Master Board / Re: Music Music Music
« on: April 25, 2017, 05:41:04 PM »
My reach is global my power is pure my cause is noble my tower secure....

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The Master Board / Re: Music Music Music
« on: April 25, 2017, 05:39:14 PM »
My reach is npblemy power is pure my cause is noble my tower secure....

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This is why other Generations give the Millennials such a hard time. Millennials are victimized but no more so than any preceding Generations.

The Millennials Florida reason have taken the victim mentality and elevated it into a sad and tragic art form.

True but our response to our on variation of gaslighting is actually a defense mechanism. Embrace the label with comedy and it can no longer hurt us.

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I also know about the end of the freedom train. No doubt that if I stop engaging in their games completely or become older and uncontrollable with age (aging delirium) they will certainly have me assisanirated. I'm just going to ride the train for as long as I have a ticket and enjoy the view, strange conversations with other passengers, and stops in mystical places along the way. I probably have until I'm at least 30 if I cooperate sometimes and the world feels like a fuckin sand box right now.

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Yes I have read about the love bombing technique and it is what has in fact helped me identify every single one of the handlers they have ever sent to attempt to regain control over me (nrg pointed out one when we first started talking - a boy named Taigan who was sent after me when I was 13, for ex). What is interesting is that most handlers are also under the control of obvious monarch training. It must be very different to be trained to be a handler than a slave however, and require much less intillegent genetics / demon manipulation. Handlers are far more expendable then weaponozed slaves and I'm sorry to say I have accidentally killed a few. What they do is come into my life with intense love bombing for a few months maybe even years and then switch to being incredibly abusive to try and gain total control over me. In their brain washed mind (and she also to thought broadcasts) they are convinced that they are terrified of losing me - to the point they'd rather die. Which is what motivates them to isolate, rape, pimp me out and use other common techniques to control someone. The thing is I have loved and lost so many times it just doesn't work anymore. My most recent handler is different. He is also becoming conscious that he has monarch training and I have been open with him that I have it. He has a lot of resources to provide levers but he will certainly utilize more insidious means to attempt to control me (he has been trying to get me pregbabt, for example). Anyways I am confident I can make him die if he truly deserves it. The way that works is that if I realize someone is truly irredeemable - the actively abuse or kill children for example, then I want them dead with all my soul my core no reservations, and any part of their body that is vulnerable will fail. I also think other weapons can protect them and heal such unknown injuries. This game is fascinating. I'm ready to play.

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Currently the top post on Reddit: https://www.reddit.com/r/Showerthoughts/comments/67hems/the_50s_60s_70s_80s_and_90s_all_feel_like/

The elites have made a very obvious effort to gaslight our generation into self hatred: attention seeking, uneducated, prejudicial, unoriginal, ENTITLEMENT, special smowflake syndrome, etc etc. they have used a great deal of mind control to make our own parents hate us most and used this to make us hate us.

My theory is that a great deal of children received monarch programming. The only way to keep the powers this gives us in check is by keeping the ego and self esteem thoroughly eroded. If anyone gets a little too independent they simply retraumatize them.


The average slaves are far more powerful than they care to realize and they won't. I suppose I prefer it that way. Our generation has a ton of culture and I think history will actually record it this way.

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I know you guys might probbly say I'm teasing again so i'm preppaird this time...

I can tell some little stories like somewhat recently when I visited a sporting goods store with friends.

 They have a small archery lane, and though I have no bows, nor shot one for many years, and my only recollection of training being from 3 decades ago as a teen, I asked to have one strung so that I could try it out.

And so I said to my friends "Watch this, I wont take any time to aim", ... and I asked the Archery lane attendant if my stance was ok, he said "yeah, where'd you learn archery".
I said, "I didn't"

The target wall had about a dozen 10" coloured circles.  Each shot I looked at my friends and stated which circle I would hit, then Immediately drew and fired the bow without a seconds pause to aim.  Every shot hit as expected, consistently.

Then I said "watch this now...",  and to the Lane attendant I said, "you pick the targets now..." 

Not one shot hit the target.

So as to say, I will not be used as a remote control weapon system.

That said, uncontrolled weapons are not to my knowledge allowed to just walk freely and do as they will.  I dont believe in violence, and my life choices prove that, although I am what i am what ever that is idk lol.

I am the same with fire arms and I suspect I would have the same experience if I practiced with archery. I also have a lot of dreams about violins. I have never played with one but something tells me it would take me very little time at all the master that instrument.

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Since discovering this site NRG has guided me to realizing that it is highly likely I was born as a moon child of the Mormon faith and trained with monarch slave training. Over the past week I have been coming to terms with the perception shattering realization that I was raped by my father as a toddler.

Now this memory is still very fractured and repressed, but I have long suspected it. Not from my own father but that makes the confusion and uncertainty make so much more sense. What is interesting is that traditional monarch training involves brutal incest at 18 months of age. So if I was raped by my father it likely first happened at that age.

I have a photographic memory of everything in my life up until 18 months when the first major blank spot is. What I do remember is going from deeply loving my father to irrationally hating him. But oscillating back and forth because he was still treating me with kindness at times.

My father (and I can attain the medical records and brain scans to prove this) spontaneously died for no known medical reason when I was 3 years old (on the summer solstice a few months after my third birth day to be precise). I used to think it was a brain aneurysm but my mother informed me a few months ago that it wasn't: they don't know what it was. His skull filled with blood and his brain died. The autopsy showed no signs of trauma or aneurysm. The doctor could not explain it.

My father was my handler. I was a monarch slave in the middle of training with no handler. I suspect I accidentally killed him. And so his mother, my grandma, attempted to take up the reigns next. I have vivid memories except of being with my grandma. I have fractured memories of the torture and abuse. I am certain she had other men rape me and perhaps even my own brother.

Once again what I do remember clearly is burning hatred. I wanted her gone just like I wanted my father gone right before he died. Suddenly she fell ill. Despite having not smoked in decades: she developed a rare form of lung cancer and was dead within three months. All I remember was elation at her stuck in the hospital bed, unable to harm me, then at her funeral I remember touching her cold cheek and knowing with full certainty my tormentor was gone.

At this point I left the Mormon church. I know I regularly attended a church with my grandma. I remember attending other churches with other family and friends but I barely remember my grandmas obscure church at all. They hunted me for years. They came to my house every day. They bribed all my friends parents into telling their kids they weren't allowed to play with me any longer unless I rejoined the church (I imagine I was against going back due to all the rape and torture). All my friends told me they were trying to save my soul. I didn't care I was not going back to that church unless someone dragged me there in chains.

I believe they tried a few more times. One was a father figure I had at 15 (retired marine sniper, retired cop). He molested me and attempted to rape me but kneed him in the groin and never trusted him again. Next was a Mormon man who was my best friend for a year. He fell in love with me and moved away probably because his own training broke from me and he became very confused.

There have been a few other handlers. No one can handle me. The only way they can is through torture but then they have a habit of randomly dying. I believe they created a weapon. I am also no where near egotistical enough to think they are afraid of me. They certainly have training inside me they can trigger or drugs they can use to take full control of me. Perhaps they do and that's where those blank spots in my memory are coming from nowadays... if so what missions then am I carrying out? How are they using my magik energy? Or when will they?

They can't control me 24-7. They have tried. But they can use me. I can use me to. I plan to, too. None of this was my choice. I'm not giving up or rolling over. I will do good for humankind and my family if possible.


The truth is they will always be able to find, kill and control me when they really want too. But that puts their handlers at risk so I think they have just given me some space and only bother with me when they really need someone like me or I'm in a convinent place. This is exactly why I moved somewhere rural. I really don't want to be used to commit a murder or act of terror; I just would rather stay out of prison is all...

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The Master Board / Re: Thread full of easily hypnotized buffoons
« on: April 25, 2017, 09:10:02 AM »
Narcissistic trolls feast on creating conflict between folks who otherwise would have been perfectly compatible. All OP has accomplished is turmoil on our site. I grew up in an n family this is clear as day to me.

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The Master Board / Re: The more words someone needs
« on: April 25, 2017, 09:05:30 AM »
Even if he did not make the post to create ambiguous deeper meaning, it was needliless wordy out of laziness. I do not have the time to wade through the incoherent ramblings of someone who does not respect my time enough to organize and sharpen their arguments or out least express an obvious goal in their statements.

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The Master Board / Re: The more words someone needs
« on: April 25, 2017, 09:02:03 AM »
"I made this one [letter] longer only because I have not had the leisure to make it shorter."

-Pascal

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The Master Board / Re: Why Colorado is such an evil place.
« on: April 23, 2017, 11:57:08 PM »
Holy shit

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