I really loathe having to be in the position to say this. Forgive me. The core of members here which is a small amount of overall traffic have been amazingly kind and generous and offered ans provided all manner of support to me in one of my darkest times.

I appreciate it more than they likely know but soon will find out. To the other thousands of people that come here every day and dont contribute to the conversation or the cause, I ask you to please reconsider. NRG is in a genuine pickle.

Again I'd it wasnt beyond necessary take as much as you like without kicking in. In abundance be abundant. I'm literally fighting for my life so if you cant help me directly at least help the site and post.

Donated here before via paypal, on the old forum.

Since then I deleted my paypal account because I dislike the company so no way of donating now, will see if I can fix this.

When the going gets tough the tough get super resourceful lol.  I'm still 10 and 10 which is  better than some atm.

Thx for the well wishes guys. I'm doing all in my power to make sure we come out on the right side of all this

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Donated here before via paypal, on the old forum.

Since then I deleted my paypal account because I dislike the company so no way of donating now, will see if I can fix this.

If you dont want to post it here pm me who were you  on old forum

Had a lot of accounts. Mainly because stuff told here used to trigger my own beliefs / ego so I would be like modern women (dramatic and cowardly) and delete my account. Always came back though. A few of the accounts just stopped working and said incorrect email address / login details.

But you mainly knew me as "The Wanderer"

Donated a few times. Also I was the guy who PM'd you your own full name, once.

You've accused me of being a glowie a few times which is kinda a compliment as I'm just a lost soul who can't remember the truth and has no access to the spirit world. (Can't AP, see just blackness when I meditate, little to no feeling when trying to do energy work).

Sometimes I wonder if I even have a soul and I'm not an NPC but would an NPC go looking for truth like I do ?

How to find out if you contain the spark?

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Donated here before via paypal, on the old forum.

Since then I deleted my paypal account because I dislike the company so no way of donating now, will see if I can fix this.

If you dont want to post it here pm me who were you  on old forum

Had a lot of accounts. Mainly because stuff told here used to trigger my own beliefs / ego so I would be like modern women (dramatic and cowardly) and delete my account. Always came back though. A few of the accounts just stopped working and said incorrect email address / login details.

But you mainly knew me as "The Wanderer"

Donated a few times. Also I was the guy who PM'd you your own full name, once.

You've accused me of being a glowie a few times which is kinda a compliment as I'm just a lost soul who can't remember the truth and has no access to the spirit world. (Can't AP, see just blackness when I meditate, little to no feeling when trying to do energy work).

Sometimes I wonder if I even have a soul and I'm not an NPC but would an NPC go looking for truth like I do ?

Of all the things you could be thinking about, obsessing about, seeking out, spending time and money doing, nevertheless you are here in earnest seeking answers to age old questions. That alone proves not only do you have one, but probably a very old one.

This is reassuring, thanks.

I keep being lead to the whole God / Jesus thing, I've always considered the bible a fictional way of keeping people obediant but if people like Terry believed then who am I not to?

The older I get the more prescient I find the true message of christianity. Not the "misinterpretations" fed to the masses.

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This is reassuring, thanks.

I keep being lead to the whole God / Jesus thing, I've always considered the bible a fictional way of keeping people obediant but if people like Terry believed then who am I not to?

The older I get the more prescient I find the true message of christianity. Not the "misinterpretations" fed to the masses.

Kinda like MLK's core message?
"Darkness cannot drive out darkness. Only light can do that."
"Violence is a vicious circle."

That and banging kids while your priest friends did the same in your direct presence?