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#645: January 12, 2021, 10:03:34 AM
Hes not going to jail for drug use. It is illegal to have drugs and illegal to seel them but not illegal to use them
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#646: January 12, 2021, 10:39:30 AM
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An old acquaintance just shared this with me. He just got out of hospital. Will be interesting to see if he stays in this way or if it fades. Also wondering what Nick's gonna say regarding his advice to stay away from ketamine as it can sever the silver string.
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I got 500 patches of LSD and 250 grams of S-isomer ketamine. The strength of the LSD is either 180 or 300 micrograms. The ketamine is said to be 83.97% pure. I have no reason to doubt any of this information, even though according to others the ketamine is probably diluted. Whether this is the case or whether I have only been exposed to an extreme build-up of tolerance, I do not know.

Since it will be a lonely Christmas anyway, having a little ketamine seems like a grand idea. I take a few bumps, but quickly go over to injecting IV. Now things are going very fast and I only have a few memories from the next 11 days. I have memories that my body is so tired that I bleed nosebleeds that wont stop. I have memories of a trip to the store. Furthermore, that I take one, then three hits of LSD and then that I sit and tear off large flakes from the blotter sheet that I stuff in my face and swallow with apple juice. In addition to this I try to eat a surgical mask that I think has ketamine on it and then I scrape the living room table with a credit card to get the absolute last of the 250 grams of ketamine.

I wake up at the emergency room 2 weeks later. Im sitting here with a good hearted nurse looking at my arm where I have a large wound that I can not explain. From there, it gradually dawns on me how far down I have been. After the emergency room, it will be another Hospital


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This is almost difficult to describe without seeming completely crazy, but in short:

I have lost the ability to feel anxiety and shame. Anxiety and shame are largely two sides of the same coin. What I have been afraid of is that people will find out that I have ended up where I have. Because I'm ashamed of that. When I can no longer be ashamed, I have nothing to worry about. If shame and anxiety are not two sides of the same coin, then at least anxiety and depression are. So now I'm definitely not depressed anymore. I really just walk around and smile and look at people and things and seaweed and dance on the bus and in the streets.

Being anxiety free means that I have to concentrate on not just stepping out right in front of traffic, which has gone well so far. A little tiresome maybe, but in return I'm not afraid of ANYTHING in the whole world. Not to die and not even the fact that the police comes and kicks down my door and says that I have to go to prison for 21 years because of all the drugs. Everything has its benefits is my attitude to it. Think how many books I could read and think how much you have to look forward to the day you release. When you are not afraid of death or the police, you are fine.

I've lost all the crap. This is probably related to the fact that I now have a good life. Sure, I've had a lot of fun on drugs, but nothing tempts more than just being present here and now.

I have lost the ability to feel jealousy / envy. This I have been bothered with a lot. Now I just think "so good for you" if someone has a nice car, boat to 12 million, unbelievably nice lady or cool job. Jealousy / envy is really brain-slag, so this is wonderful to get rid of.

As if this was not "nuts" enough:

I can rewind in my memory and relive things. Not only remember things well, but really sense things like a particularly memorable intercourse, my first BASE jump or anything Ive experienced.

The craziest thing is that I can meditate to become different things. The other day I was a landslide, a snow crystal, a glacier and 2 billion liters of water. When I got tired after being 2 billion effervescent liters of water, I decided to be a rye seed in the seed vault on Svalbard. Then I slept well. Exactly these last two qualities I can probably keep to myself. Answering Ive been lying here and been a squirrel for an hour" when the doctors ask what I have done since I got up is typically something that allows you to end up in hospital - type psychiatric - more or less voluntarily. So the last two characteristics remain our secret.

I've always been surprisingly in support of most drug use. That being said I've always said stay the fuck away from k. It severs the mind body connection

Interesting it's being pushed hard for "depression" I've seen a bunch of their ads... Fuck off AI :P
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Re: Random musings
#647: January 13, 2021, 08:39:45 PM
Are wisdom teeth important?
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#648: January 13, 2021, 08:47:13 PM
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Are wisdom teeth important?

No more than any other teeth
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#649: January 14, 2021, 07:13:23 AM
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Are wisdom teeth important?

No more than any other teeth
much wisdom from Sun Tzu tho "he who is destined to defeat first fights and afterwords looks for victory "the skkillful fighter puts himself into a position which makes defeat impossible !
keep your chin up and Stay Safe
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#650: January 14, 2021, 08:40:20 AM
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interesting link...
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#651: January 14, 2021, 07:07:42 PM
VERY interesting regarding schizophrenia, entities, "not every thought in your head originates from you", how consciously choosing and thinking the right thoughts can change you. This guy was a psych in a prison and worked with inmates who heard voices, but he was actually interested in what the voices were saying and started probing, trying to lay traps for the voices etc.

Fascinating!

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#652: January 15, 2021, 12:26:24 AM
If you be human too, hear me, write on.
Recount the tale of Nexpo from the start.
It pains one to tell, both hither and yon.
I know it not, so tell me from the heart.

A man named named Ryan, on masonic land,
had filmed an act too grotesque to detail.
Remains censored now, still his master plan,
to conceal his acts, so wicked, unhale.

In a shack, a forest, a graveyard too,
Nexpo's cruel deeds did begin to commence.
The crimes so evil, arrived he to do.
And got there he did, by the iron fence.

MamaMax now, bares witness to the scene.
ScareTheatre and NightDocs cheer his work,
with great joy they laugh, gleeful and serene.
And Amanda now trembles, scared, beserk.

As they danced the bodies burned, up in flames.
Women, children and a parrot as well.
Objective complete, he shifted the blame,
making sure there was no one left to tell.

Such crimes against man, the horrors he did.
May not I describe, the vile sin which was.
Paid off the feds, for the tapes are now hid.
No closure for this, he stands by the laws.

Once loved by many, but then fell from grace.
Silenced all who mention his many deeds.
From the videos, I still see his face.
And he still managed to get away free.

The mind is troubled, that hears this famed tale.
Could such an event have been on record?
And how could the recall of the web fail?
Nexpo Incident, my memory restored.
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#653: January 15, 2021, 03:03:33 AM
does this mean a break in the midnight productions "cold case", or am I way off?
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#654: January 15, 2021, 04:18:29 AM
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does this mean a break in the midnight productions "cold case", or am I way off?

I couldn't pin it to mp specifically but let's just say nothing stays buried on the net and a very high-profile e streamer has much to fear
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#655: January 15, 2021, 06:30:05 AM
Don't want to change the subject but curious if anyone here has experienced this: You are not allowed to view links. Register or Login

I've heard it for years, particularly at night.
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#656: January 16, 2021, 12:36:20 PM
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If you be human too, hear me, write on.
Recount the tale of Nexpo from the start.
It pains one to tell, both hither and yon.
I know it not, so tell me from the heart.

A man named named Ryan, on masonic land,
had filmed an act too grotesque to detail.
Remains censored now, still his master plan,
to conceal his acts, so wicked, unhale.

In a shack, a forest, a graveyard too,
Nexpo's cruel deeds did begin to commence.
The crimes so evil, arrived he to do.
And got there he did, by the iron fence.

MamaMax now, bares witness to the scene.
ScareTheatre and NightDocs cheer his work,
with great joy they laugh, gleeful and serene.
And Amanda now trembles, scared, beserk.

As they danced the bodies burned, up in flames.
Women, children and a parrot as well.
Objective complete, he shifted the blame,
making sure there was no one left to tell.

Such crimes against man, the horrors he did.
May not I describe, the vile sin which was.
Paid off the feds, for the tapes are now hid.
No closure for this, he stands by the laws.

Once loved by many, but then fell from grace.
Silenced all who mention his many deeds.
From the videos, I still see his face.
And he still managed to get away free.

The mind is troubled, that hears this famed tale.
Could such an event have been on record?
And how could the recall of the web fail?
Nexpo Incident, my memory restored.

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#657: January 19, 2021, 11:02:44 AM
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#658: January 20, 2021, 01:27:40 PM
Are democrats really this thick?

Yet
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#659: January 20, 2021, 09:32:57 PM
Just an ounce of politically incorrect  humor to make it through today

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